Getting out of hell on earth
This quote struck me deep. “A woman who has no way of expressing herself and of realizing herself as a full human has nothing else to turn to but the owning of material things. — Enriqueta Longeaux y Vasquez”.
How Amazon profits from this. How many times have I shopped to fill the gaping hole within. Is my material thing the trinket of a man that is my arm candy, is it those that I surround myself with to be enough. At times it has been these things and so much more.
The greatest gift I gave myself was a trip to NY City for my 49th birthday. I attended a workshop where I learned to express myself. Express that wild creature deeply rooted into the who I am. For the first time in my life I was encircled by women, young, old, small, big, voluptuous, athletic we were all there and not once did I feel judgment for the pixie I am. In fact the most beautiful expression of art I have ever saw to this day was performed by what our society would deem as a rather large unhealthy woman. Not once in her expression of emotion did you ever see her size, what you saw was raw carnal beauty of woman. The most powerful thing I think I’ve ever seen, nothing sexier, more beautiful, hypnotic, or free have I seen.
This gift has blessed me in so many ways. As today I know how to find that freedom. The freedom I can tap into anywhere in a safe place recapturing the power of the essence of all that I am, the beauty of the female. Be it the soft gentle lover, the playful innocence, the cold b*tc#, the rage monster that brings her wrath like no other, the yummy sensual lustful desire of the primal beauty of life. I learned how to express myself in a safe loving place and was celebrated by other women that understood. I was welcomed into a new sisterhood I had never known. One of support, love, and encouragement. WOW!!
When I came home I looked, I looked hard for this sisterhood of safety here and found none. Today I am so blessed to have created such a place, for myself and a few others. I found my tribe of fellow women that are willing to break the trends, go against the grain, to love and support while tapping into the darkest, scariest places on earth, the places that society says are wrong, we are told are dangerous our inner selves and desires.
Like a bear coming out of hibernation that goes on a killing spree out of hunger for what it has not had for so long we women are not much different when we repress our deepest desires of the crave of our wild scary self.
We think we have come so far yet how many of us truly still live this conversation from 1500’s.
Veronica Franco: My cage seems bigger than yours, but it’s still a cage.
Beatrice Venier: You won’t get sympathy from me.
Veronica Franco: I don’t want it.
Beatrice Venier: Do you know what my daughter’s nurse told her today? That in a girl’s voice lies temptation. A known fact. Eloquence in a woman means promiscuity. Promiscuity of the mind leads to promiscuity of the body. She doesn’t believe her yet, but she will She’ll grow up like her mother. She’ll marry, bear children and honor her family. Spend her youth in needlepoint and when she dies she’ll wonder why she obeyed all the rules of God and country because no biblical hell could ever be worse than this state of perpetual inconsequence.
As we are so busy screaming for our suffrage are we forgetting to live the life we are fighting for???
When do we stop living in hell on earth and create a heaven beyond our wildest dreams? Today I thank the Divine for giving me the tools to empower myself through expression with those that honor and celebrate it in safety so I can go out and be a light to the world.
To the beautiful woman that went with me so I didn’t have to walk such a scary path alone
❤ You will forever be in my heart.
Thank you @avasol for the pic
